Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Beauty and the Mother

Greetings from Aruba, friends.

Sunset last night


Tom, Jen, the babe, and I all jetted off yesterday after a weekend of hard work at the Steubenville Youth Conference in Orlando, FL. It was a longer flight than I realized (4 hours), but I guess that's what happens when you're 19 miles north of the Venezuelan coast. Quick jaunt to Caracas, anyone?

We got here around 3:30pm yesterday, and by 4pm, were in our suits, exploring the grounds of the hotel. Zuzu stared at exotic birds and chased after several iguanas - I guess my Florida girl has no fear of reptiles. We hung out at the pool for a while, before having dinner and then going for a post-dinner ocean swim. Why not? We're on vacation.

Loveliness courtesy of Jen

I grabbed Jen's camera and started snapping away - images of Jen, Zuzu, and Tom frolicking by the ocean. Passerbys smiled indulgently, and I realized the scene looked the opposite of what it was: I was the friend taking pictures of the family. But as I've reflected with Jen before, I like it better taking pictures of her with Tom and Zuzu - because they look like what I think a family should look like. For me, Jen looks what a young mom should look like: her silhouette is slender, no pouching tummy, or big thighs. The images with her in them, silhouetted against that Aruba sunset, were almost like make-believe for me: this is what my family should look like. 


Jen and Zuzu have a kiss

But then Zuzu asked me to get into the water (which I'm not going to do with Jen's very nice DSLR camera). And I knew Jen or Tom would take the camera and then take pics of me, and they wouldn't look the way I think they should look. I thought about all the pictures of my mom and I from when I was young, and I revisit them again and again because I think she was (and is) so beautiful, so young, so my mother. But would I love my mother any less if she looked any differently? I love my mother for who she is, for who she's always been: she's beautiful because she loves me. Zuzu thinks I'm beautiful because I love her - love refines, love makes beautiful. 

Jen

I can choose to show her that I believe in the lies of the world: that only certain people deserve to have their pictures taken, that we should be ashamed of bodies that are different, that fear should motivate how we feel about ourselves. I can show her that there should be a division between women who 'fit' the stereotype and those who don't, I can use phrases like 'real women' to devalue others' bodies, striking back in my self-consciousness by declaring thin women to be 'fake.' 

Or - and this is a big or - or I could choose to show her what God believes about beauty. That beauty, although it exists as a concept, objectively, is also something that exists in actions, in our souls, in who we strive to be. I create beauty, and I am beautiful, in relation to how much I love. 


Jen


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I still believe Zuzu will look at these pictures when she's older and think I am beautiful. I will work to convince myself of this too; to conform my mind to the mind of Christ. To believe that beauty is about who we are as much as what we look like. 

Jen


Be beautiful, be loving, be Christ to your family today - and take some pictures to remember it all. 

7 comments:

  1. Love this post! I needed to read this today:)

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    1. Thank you Angie! Being photographed in a bathing suit is never easy, but a beach vacation can really make you face your fears...so you should go on vacation! (post bar, of course :))

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  2. You are beautiful and this is a beautiful post! And everytime you talk about Jen, I wish I had a Jen in my life. A best friend to go on vacation with, to help out with childcare and take pictures and do all that stuff.

    Enjoy your vacation. Although I never understood while people who live in Fl go to places even MORE tropical for vacation. I would think they'd want to go someplace Northern and cool...not someplace with more heat. But that is probably just me! LOL

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    1. Jen is the best, that's for sure! I really don't think my transition to motherhood would have been as easy or painless without her. She's a part of our family, which is why we try to take her everywhere!

      Y'know, it's funny, because I LOVE when we get to go up north - which we will be in about 12 days (to Indiana). But the sad thing is, it's oftentimes cheaper to go to another (tropical) country, than it is to be a tourist in the USA! I will say I am excited to visit one of the ABC islands/Netherland Antilles for the first time, just to see what it was like. I'm not sure I would choose this again, personally, because I like a bit more cultural experiences than Aruba has to offer, but I can say it's a way better beach experience than Naples! First off, it's almost 81 degrees year round, but there is a constant heavy breeze, which makes it much cooler. The water is crazy turquoise blue and completely transparent, like the movies, the sand is incredibly soft, and there is practically no surf - which means it's ideal for little ones to explore the ocean. So, it is very appealing - although I'm still not sure I'd fly 4 hours for it again :)

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  3. This made me so emotional. What a great reminder!

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    1. It's a very emotional topic for me too. :)

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  4. I really love this. I am constantly aware of the messages I send my children when it comes to body image, but too often I am falling short of my goal. But this?

    "That beauty, although it exists as a concept, objectively, is also something that exists in actions, in our souls, in who we strive to be. I create beauty, and I am beautiful, in relation to how much I love,".
    Makes perfect sense. Thank you.

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